Hope

Assalamualaikum hai. Sebab tetiba rasa nak post an entry regarding this. The picture that i attach with this entry is very useful. I did that a day before unit operation punya paper. Serius break down teruk masa tu. Esok nak exam tapi banyak gila benda tak faham. Fragile. Menangis depan nota. Tuhan je tahu. I just stared dekat notes. Buat past year tersekat sekat. Tanya semua, everyone pun having the same hard time. Asking motivation from friends yg currently study dekt uni lain. Taknak menangis dekt parents sebab I'm afraid utk buat diorang risau. Apa je yg aku tak buat nak hilangkn pressure. Apa je. Then i realized that i forgot siapa sebenarnya yang pegang hati manusia ni. Time tu tak pikir apa dah. Bangun terus amik wuduk, terus solat. Solat sunat 2 rakaat. Not specific solat mcm solt dhuha ke solat taubat ke tak, memng niat solat sunat je sebab tak mampu nak pikir apa dah time tu. Last sujood was so ... Aku tkleh nak describe. I literally just crying for idk how many minutes dlm sujud aku. So many things to say dekt Dia. So many things nak mngadu. Semua benda aku mengadu. Dari susahnya subjek ke betapa susahnya aku nk faham. Semua. Sama macam apa yang people selalu mengadu tu their boyfriend. Except for this one, ni memng betul betul your ultimate lover. And yknow what? It is much more relieving than mengadu dekt manusia. Why? Eventhough Allah not directly pujuk kau with words sebab kalau ya, kau yang pengsan nanti hahaha. Tpi bila kau ad keyakinan like, okay, aku dah mengadu kt Allah, aku dah luah semua, aku dah mohon pertolongan, dah mintak ketenangan semua. So yang tinggal sekrng, kalau Allah nak bagi, Alhamdulillah. Kalau tk dpt ap aku nak, aku yakin Allah simpan perancangan yang lagi baik utk aku. Either way, aku terima. Know what happened after that? Aku study unit op dengn hati yg sangat tenang. Walaupun tk dpt grasp smua konsep, aku dh boleh faham pengiraan yg tk diajar. Well not all tpi boleh lh utk jadikn keyakinn sikit.
And now, bila result keluar, aku menangis weh tngok grade unit op aku. Unexpected gila. Betullah pergantungan kt Allah tu serius penting. Bukan sebab apa, tpi bila kau bergantung dekt Allah, kau akan lebih tenang. Bila tenang, everything will go smoothly. Bila smooth, cepatlah serap semua ilmu. Atau lebih bertabah lah kau hadap satu satu ujian tu.
So for everyone out there, recheck balik diri. Bila kita sedih, bila serabut, dekt siapa yang kita mengadu dulu? Dia atau dia? Tu je for today, thank you.
With love, assalamualaikum. :)

Summary of 2nd Semester

Assalamualaikum, hai gais. So in few weeks, I will begin my 3rd semester in Applied Chemistry. Half dah, tinggal lagi half. Kekadang its surprising how i end up taking this course cause i never knew its existence pun before this. But what can i say? Allah has the best plan after all. Jadi sekrang result final sem 2 pun dah keluar, same goes with result kolej.
As for result final, Alhamdulillah. Im quite surprise with the result sbb aku rasa sem 2 punya subject memang tough. Walaupun takdk yg 4 credit hour tapi most of the subjects are new to us. New satu hal, involved pengiraan satu hal yang lain. And preparation aku for final hrtu pun seems less than daripada sem 1 sebab sakit aku. And trtanya tnya, bila lah nak berubah sebab still lagi buat past year last minute, haih 😑😑😑 i just hope dengan result ni, akan jdi one of the motivation utk teruskan survive for 3rd semester. Idk what kind of thing yg aku akan hadap, but i hope everything will be just fine insyaAllah.
As for college's result, sama, alhamdulillah. Well, besides the fact that im now a melatian rather than mawarian hahahha. At first mcm devastated gak. Tpi tah ah, aku dpt rasa yg something positive will occur. Atau aku je yg memng jenis nk cari benda positive in everything that happened. Whatever it is, i pray for the best.
Azam semester 3? Biar diri sendiri je yang tahu. Everyone ad benda yang diorng nak achieve. Same goes with me. And it needs full determination and passion. I pray for the semester 3 to be kind hahaha and aku harap aku dapat survive dengan jayanya along with my classmates, insyaAllah amiinnn.
Thats all, nothing much to say sebab tgh heartbroken sikit. And this is one of the way to divert my attention from it. Hahaha silly me. So thank you for reading.
With love, assalamualaikum.

Entrepreneurship

Assalamualaikum, hai. So I've been reading a post regarding stigma of the uselessness in furthering your study to the next level. Just because of the fact kau akan dibebani dengan hutang pelajaran and it will be damn hard to secure a job. Compared to those yang decide to stop their learning education and continue to do business. Seriously, this thing getting on my nerve dari dulu lgi. The benefit of business. Memang kalau kau tak buat business, memang kau ni dikira orang mundur lah. Memang takkn berjaya. Memang akan terus miskin sebab makan gaji etc. I know, i clearly know my dear yang sekarang kita hidup dlm dunia yg competitive. Instead of seeking a job, you have to create the job, i know. And aku pun tahu 9 dari 10 pintu rezeki itu datang daripada perniagaan. I know that too very well. Tapi kau pernah pikir tak pasal orang yang memang lansung tak mint business? I mean, not even a little. And aku tak pernah nak belittle those people yang buat business because for me, they just awesome. Sama mcm profession yang lain. We have a lot of other ways to contribute back to the society. Sometimes yes, memang kerja mkn gaji but who knows it might benefit you more. Contohnya jadi cikgu, or lecturer. How noble that profession are. Jangan ada yang claim aku ckp be a business person ni tk noble. Aku tampau kang. Kekadang rimas tengok dekt fac, kolej, tv, socmed semua tekan kan pasl business. Because seriously, i am not a business punya orang. Marketing etc tu memang tak boleh masuk. So i really hope society not to be so judgemental pasal orang yang kerja makan gaji. Thats merely just my opinion. Adios, assalamualaikum. :)

Random

Hai assalamualaikum. So this is me, wasting my time when i actually supposed to finish my lab report. Hahahaa ya tuhan boleh nangis buat lab report. Cuma tadi eksaited theres this one email yg masuk and asking regarding applied chem punya course. Sorry sebab reply lmbt though. Not my intention cuma tk perasan.
Im currently undergo sem 2 out of 6. Boleh tahan hellish gak compare to sem 1. You start to experience how to be independent, banyak kena belaja sndri. You start to experience pop quiz hahaha. And you start to experience kena miss class because certain certain things. Si betu lah. Life will always get harder and harder. Tapi tu bukan reason nak give up tau. Take it as a challenge. So pray for me. Less than a month nak final. Lets hope and pray for the best shall we? Assalamualaikum :))

Holiday syndrome

Assalamualaikum, hai peeps. Its been a while since i updated my blog. Sbenrnya skrng tengah cuti sem. And cuti sem ni like mendap punya phase. Ahhaha everything is so malas to do. I keep reminding and berazam to myself to update but yeah, meh.
So, i just ended my first semester of b.science applied chem. Wuhuu 🎉🎉🎉🎉 otabjoubi omedetou to myself i supposed. Ehe
Throughout the prepration towards the final exam of first semester, theres a lot of mistakes yg aku prasan aku buat. i put up here, so you will not do the same mistakes again.
1. Please and please, jangan buat past year last minute. I mean, bila kau compile dengan fikirn dan cdangan bhasawanya kau akn buat semua past year of every subject time study week, you just mnyusahkan your lecturer. Why? Sebab dude, you have 14 weeks to ask regarding past year. And past year ni boleh je buat leps dh habis blja setiap satu chapter. Knp aku ckp mnyushkn lecturer? Satu, akan ada raaaaamaaaaaai student yg pesen mcm kau. Last mnute bru nk jumpa lecturer. And lecturer kau akn strt pening. Tu pun kalau lcturer kau tk busy. Ad stu kes for one of my subj, aku tk dpt jumpa lecturer tu lnsung sbb beliau busy. Aku tnya soalan through ws pun beliau bluetick je sbb busy. And i dont blame her though. Sbb mmg salah aku. Second, eventhough kau dpt jumpa pun, bukan lecturer kau dpt check stu stu working kau. I mean hello, kau pkir lecturer kau tadk kja lain? Kalau kau bagi sedebuk ha past year 2013-2016, kau pkir mampu ke dia check satu satu dlm masa brp lama je kau jumpa dia? So ap yg lecturer kau boleh buat is just bgi brief concept je mcm mna nk selsaikn. Tu pun kalau kau phm. Kekdng org ni depn lecturer dia main angguk kata paham. Padahal, habuk. Jdi, if kau start buat dri awal, hbis stu chapter kau dh boleh buat satu soalan besar, then pi jumpa lecturer utk check, then dia boleh lah check detail sbb soalan tu sikit. Takdak lah lcturer hang pening.
2. Jangan postpone utk faham stu stu subtopik, apetah lgi topik besaq. Pasaipa? Sbb nnti kau sakit nak cover time study week. Kau nak pahmkn lagi, nak hapai lagi, nak prektis soklan lgi, bnyak. Then nnti kau gelabah bila tk dpt cover every topic. For me, every hbis stu topik, aku akn buat nota aku sndri. Well not really ah. Nk quiz atau test bru buat hahahaha. Tpi time study week, serius aku rasa leisure ja sbb kena prektis soklan ja. Sambil praktis, boleh hapai. Takdak lah bru nak belek nota time tu jugak. Jangan ckp akak tak pesan kay.
3. Kasihanilah your friend yg kau selalu terjah utk tnya soklan. Satu, jangan dtg tnya dengan minda yg kosong. At least, try to grasp the concept dlu. Pent lah dia kalau hangpa nak suh dia ajaq start dri A sampai Z. Unless kalau kau mmg btul btul tkthu. Tpi dlm 10 soalan kau tnya, takkan sepoloh sepoloh tu kau tk fhm lnsung en. Totally tk fhm i mean.
4. Please be considerate of others. Datng bilik org, jgn dok buat bising. Dia ad roommate jugak weh. Kang roommate dia kompelain, bukan kompelain kat hang tpi kat dia. And lgi satu, limit kn lh berada di bilik org. I mean, kalau angka dh jam 12 mlm, pndai pndai lah beredar sndri. Sbb kekdng kwn kau oky, tapi roommate dia yg tk selesa. Kita ni hidup berkomuniti. So kena give and take ah.
5. Ni simple. Jangn delay assignment. Apeth lgi lab report. Jgn take things for granted lh bila lecturer ckp, 'saya bagi due date semua lab report smpai minggu ke-14'.

Tu je kut. And btw, result aku dah keluar. Ahahaha, boleh boleh ah tpi tk capai target. Pape pun, may Allah drive us to something better in 2017 ni. Bye asslamualaikum.

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