Hope

Assalamualaikum hai. Sebab tetiba rasa nak post an entry regarding this. The picture that i attach with this entry is very useful. I did that a day before unit operation punya paper. Serius break down teruk masa tu. Esok nak exam tapi banyak gila benda tak faham. Fragile. Menangis depan nota. Tuhan je tahu. I just stared dekat notes. Buat past year tersekat sekat. Tanya semua, everyone pun having the same hard time. Asking motivation from friends yg currently study dekt uni lain. Taknak menangis dekt parents sebab I'm afraid utk buat diorang risau. Apa je yg aku tak buat nak hilangkn pressure. Apa je. Then i realized that i forgot siapa sebenarnya yang pegang hati manusia ni. Time tu tak pikir apa dah. Bangun terus amik wuduk, terus solat. Solat sunat 2 rakaat. Not specific solat mcm solt dhuha ke solat taubat ke tak, memng niat solat sunat je sebab tak mampu nak pikir apa dah time tu. Last sujood was so ... Aku tkleh nak describe. I literally just crying for idk how many minutes dlm sujud aku. So many things to say dekt Dia. So many things nak mngadu. Semua benda aku mengadu. Dari susahnya subjek ke betapa susahnya aku nk faham. Semua. Sama macam apa yang people selalu mengadu tu their boyfriend. Except for this one, ni memng betul betul your ultimate lover. And yknow what? It is much more relieving than mengadu dekt manusia. Why? Eventhough Allah not directly pujuk kau with words sebab kalau ya, kau yang pengsan nanti hahaha. Tpi bila kau ad keyakinan like, okay, aku dah mengadu kt Allah, aku dah luah semua, aku dah mohon pertolongan, dah mintak ketenangan semua. So yang tinggal sekrng, kalau Allah nak bagi, Alhamdulillah. Kalau tk dpt ap aku nak, aku yakin Allah simpan perancangan yang lagi baik utk aku. Either way, aku terima. Know what happened after that? Aku study unit op dengn hati yg sangat tenang. Walaupun tk dpt grasp smua konsep, aku dh boleh faham pengiraan yg tk diajar. Well not all tpi boleh lh utk jadikn keyakinn sikit.
And now, bila result keluar, aku menangis weh tngok grade unit op aku. Unexpected gila. Betullah pergantungan kt Allah tu serius penting. Bukan sebab apa, tpi bila kau bergantung dekt Allah, kau akan lebih tenang. Bila tenang, everything will go smoothly. Bila smooth, cepatlah serap semua ilmu. Atau lebih bertabah lah kau hadap satu satu ujian tu.
So for everyone out there, recheck balik diri. Bila kita sedih, bila serabut, dekt siapa yang kita mengadu dulu? Dia atau dia? Tu je for today, thank you.
With love, assalamualaikum. :)

Summary of 2nd Semester

Assalamualaikum, hai gais. So in few weeks, I will begin my 3rd semester in Applied Chemistry. Half dah, tinggal lagi half. Kekadang its surprising how i end up taking this course cause i never knew its existence pun before this. But what can i say? Allah has the best plan after all. Jadi sekrang result final sem 2 pun dah keluar, same goes with result kolej.
As for result final, Alhamdulillah. Im quite surprise with the result sbb aku rasa sem 2 punya subject memang tough. Walaupun takdk yg 4 credit hour tapi most of the subjects are new to us. New satu hal, involved pengiraan satu hal yang lain. And preparation aku for final hrtu pun seems less than daripada sem 1 sebab sakit aku. And trtanya tnya, bila lah nak berubah sebab still lagi buat past year last minute, haih 😑😑😑 i just hope dengan result ni, akan jdi one of the motivation utk teruskan survive for 3rd semester. Idk what kind of thing yg aku akan hadap, but i hope everything will be just fine insyaAllah.
As for college's result, sama, alhamdulillah. Well, besides the fact that im now a melatian rather than mawarian hahahha. At first mcm devastated gak. Tpi tah ah, aku dpt rasa yg something positive will occur. Atau aku je yg memng jenis nk cari benda positive in everything that happened. Whatever it is, i pray for the best.
Azam semester 3? Biar diri sendiri je yang tahu. Everyone ad benda yang diorng nak achieve. Same goes with me. And it needs full determination and passion. I pray for the semester 3 to be kind hahaha and aku harap aku dapat survive dengan jayanya along with my classmates, insyaAllah amiinnn.
Thats all, nothing much to say sebab tgh heartbroken sikit. And this is one of the way to divert my attention from it. Hahaha silly me. So thank you for reading.
With love, assalamualaikum.

Entrepreneurship

Assalamualaikum, hai. So I've been reading a post regarding stigma of the uselessness in furthering your study to the next level. Just because of the fact kau akan dibebani dengan hutang pelajaran and it will be damn hard to secure a job. Compared to those yang decide to stop their learning education and continue to do business. Seriously, this thing getting on my nerve dari dulu lgi. The benefit of business. Memang kalau kau tak buat business, memang kau ni dikira orang mundur lah. Memang takkn berjaya. Memang akan terus miskin sebab makan gaji etc. I know, i clearly know my dear yang sekarang kita hidup dlm dunia yg competitive. Instead of seeking a job, you have to create the job, i know. And aku pun tahu 9 dari 10 pintu rezeki itu datang daripada perniagaan. I know that too very well. Tapi kau pernah pikir tak pasal orang yang memang lansung tak mint business? I mean, not even a little. And aku tak pernah nak belittle those people yang buat business because for me, they just awesome. Sama mcm profession yang lain. We have a lot of other ways to contribute back to the society. Sometimes yes, memang kerja mkn gaji but who knows it might benefit you more. Contohnya jadi cikgu, or lecturer. How noble that profession are. Jangan ada yang claim aku ckp be a business person ni tk noble. Aku tampau kang. Kekadang rimas tengok dekt fac, kolej, tv, socmed semua tekan kan pasl business. Because seriously, i am not a business punya orang. Marketing etc tu memang tak boleh masuk. So i really hope society not to be so judgemental pasal orang yang kerja makan gaji. Thats merely just my opinion. Adios, assalamualaikum. :)